I had two brothers who died , One when I was 2 and one when I was 7 , they were babies and when I was 7 I was really bonded with my baby brother Benjamin . I have ALWAYS taken on men who are really not in good spaces and cared for them so as to actually help them up and out of their circumstance , with no expectation of pay back . Now that I am older , I said to myself "Jen , you paid the debt , you can have fun next time . " I have a fascination with cojoined twins , as I feel that in their unity , one can more easily see the truth of the spirit - there was a set who the one had an incurable heart story , and there was no way to seperate them . They died about a day apart , and the one girl knew her sister was going to die and had died . So this was very odd , but bascially the one life could not sustain the other , even though when they both were alive together , one kind of ate for both . The way they were attached made them look as if they were ballroom dancers , which I found very beautiful . I think it is important to know that the mourning process is important to realize , and that this twin syndrome that you are writing about is basically mourning for a loss without knowing it . My mother did not let me go to Benjamin's funeral , I don't know why . I was never allowed to grieve .
I heard about this through my therapist many years ago and can often see this loss in people. I have a friend that it’s so obvious he was the survivor but he’s not open to it. When I had that realization for him I cracked an egg and it was a double yoke which seemed to me to be a confirmation from higher knowledge 🤨🙏🏼
I had two brothers who died , One when I was 2 and one when I was 7 , they were babies and when I was 7 I was really bonded with my baby brother Benjamin . I have ALWAYS taken on men who are really not in good spaces and cared for them so as to actually help them up and out of their circumstance , with no expectation of pay back . Now that I am older , I said to myself "Jen , you paid the debt , you can have fun next time . " I have a fascination with cojoined twins , as I feel that in their unity , one can more easily see the truth of the spirit - there was a set who the one had an incurable heart story , and there was no way to seperate them . They died about a day apart , and the one girl knew her sister was going to die and had died . So this was very odd , but bascially the one life could not sustain the other , even though when they both were alive together , one kind of ate for both . The way they were attached made them look as if they were ballroom dancers , which I found very beautiful . I think it is important to know that the mourning process is important to realize , and that this twin syndrome that you are writing about is basically mourning for a loss without knowing it . My mother did not let me go to Benjamin's funeral , I don't know why . I was never allowed to grieve .
Fascinating. More evidence that time, space, history and memory are all embodied experiences.
I heard about this through my therapist many years ago and can often see this loss in people. I have a friend that it’s so obvious he was the survivor but he’s not open to it. When I had that realization for him I cracked an egg and it was a double yoke which seemed to me to be a confirmation from higher knowledge 🤨🙏🏼
This sounds like part of "Family Constellations" work ... have you ever delved into that? Here is my friend Veronique Mead's experience of it https://chronicillnesstraumastudies.com/healing-multigenerational-trauma/